So, you can move one item from the 'not done' to the 'done' category. I quit my job yesterday! I will work three more shifts and then I'm done. It's a bitter sweet thing. I really do enjoy my time at the hospital and feel so blessed to have a degree that allows me to earn a pretty good paycheck for not a lot of hours. I have been employed at this hospital for 5 1/2 years and I really like the people there, I will miss them. Also, the sense of security we had with that job was wonderful. I never worked a lot...I was a 'PRN' employee, which just means I worked when I was available...which was never very much. There was just something about knowing that if we needed extra money I could always pick up an extra shift and it wouldn't be a big deal. Now if we need extra money I'm not sure what we'll do. We've always figured something out so I'm not really stressed, it's just something new, and I'm not really the kind of person who likes change.
On the other hand I really love not being employed outside of the home. Even though I never worked very much (sometimes it was as little as one shift a month!) I always felt guilty. If I told the staffing office' no' I felt guilty for not being a good employee. If I told the staffing office 'yes' I felt guilty for not being a good Mom. So now I can just get back to feeling guilty for regular things...not spending enough time cleaning because I'm doing something with the kids, or spending too much time cleaning and not enough time with the kids, etc.
I do have to give a shout out to my friends Amy, Caroline, and Kelly who made the schedule work for us this past year. Since September I have been working once a week rather than 'just every once in a while' and we've needed some help with the kiddos. When I told the kids that I was only going to work for 3 more Thursdays the kids were not as excited as I thought they'd be. They asked if they could still go home with their friends on Thursdays or if they had to come home with me, they also wondered if I could maybe go out sometimes so they could have 'fun Daddy dinner'. I guess I should be grateful that it was not a traumatic year for them but I was hoping for a little more enthusiasm!
Okay, so that's it. Goodbye SJMH, it's been nice!
